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Well, probably should give at least some updates

Bit of backstory:

Back around age 10-12ish, I got bounced off a trampoline in north texas. Some of you might know what the black clay feels like in summer. Might as well be concrete.

Landed flat on my back.

As most kids go, I hurt for a few days, ignored it. Big mistake.

Skip forward to 2005ish. Working at walmart. Back starts causing problems. Get it xrayed, based on deteroration, was about 10-12 years old (and only ever had one back injury, so, fairly sure that was it).

It meant I couldn't stock at walmart, well, not very good, it caused issues. started cashiering, but that still caused issues..

Since then I've had a hard time keeping jobs. Can't lift worth a crap, pain when standing too long, etc. Lost job at sprint from bronchitis or something similar. Coughing for a minute straight sucks. Even more so when every cough brings a spasm of pain, bringing another cough.

Ended up at a grocery store again. quit there when I nearly collapsed. Went to data entry. (end of last year)

Got sick again, lost job. Got another, working for the Oklahoma Tax commission. This was april 1st.

Suffice it to say, the back pain just got worse. I was constantly in pain, at least somewhat. No position to sit in comfortably.

May 1st, I went to a chiro, leaving work at lunch. 8 hours later, pain returned. May 4th (a monday) I returned to work...then left when I went to lunch. Sat down in car and nearly passed out from pain. Lost job because I went to emergency room and never called (phones busy at emergency room).

Now, I'm looking at filing for disability. I can't even sit somewhere for very long without lortab or better painkillers. For years, I took OTC painkillers, till I stopped getting any effect, now, its just prescription strength ones.

I barely risk driving at this point. Oklahoma roads are crap (even city roads) and if I hit a bump, it HURTS. I'm afraid I'll hit a bump at some point, pass out, and kill myself...and someone else.

for the last week, I've often been in bed for 10-12 hours...and got maybe 3-4 hours sleep, in tiny increments, due to no comfortable positions.

Sometimes I wish it was over. If only so the pain would stop. And the stress, as I have pretty much no money at this point. Doesn't help that depression is hitting me hard. I end up playing Warcraft because its the only thing currently that seems to keep the depression at bay.

WTB mind upload, so I can finally trash this body.
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recently re-installed Skype on my computer

But I HATE the normal ringtone, or classic one.

ringtones can only be 1.5k wav files. well, there went the idea of Slaughter Your World (yes, was my cell phone's ringtone for a while)

So....

Its set to a clip from Ayria - Blue Alice. "This is one fucked up fairlytale"
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Q: I've heard that cardiovascular exercise can prolong life; is this true?
A: Your heart is only good for so many beats, and that's it... Don't waste them on exercise. Everything wears out eventually.. Speeding up your hear t will not make you live longer; that's like saying you can extend the life of your car by driving it faster. Want to live longer? Take a nap.

Q: Should I cut down on meat and eat more fruits and vegetables?
A: You must grasp logistical efficiencies. What does a cow eat? Hay and corn. And what are these? Vegetables. So a steak is nothing more than an efficient mechanism of delivering vegetables to your system. Need grain? Eat chicken. Beef is also a good source of field grass (green leafy vegetable). And a pork chop can give you 100% of your recommended daily allowance of vegetable products.

Q:Should I reduce my alcohol intake?
A: No, not at=2 0all. Wine is made from fruit.
Brandy is distilled wine, that means they take the water out of the fruity bit so you get even more of the goodness that way. Beer is also made out of grain.
Bottoms up!

Q:How can I calculate my body/fat ratio?
A: Well, if you have a body and you have fat, your ratio is one to one. If you have two bodies your ratio is two to one, etc.

Q:What are some of the advantages of participating in a regular exercise program?
A: Can't think of a single one, sorry. My philosophy is: No Pain...Good!

Q:Aren't fried foods bad for you?
A: YOU'RE NOT LISTENING!!!
.... Foods are fried these days in vegetable oil. In fact, they're permeated in it. How could getting more vegetables be bad for you?

Q: Will sit-ups help prevent me from getting a little soft around the middle?
A: Definitely not! When you exercise a muscle, it gets bigger. You should only be doing sit-ups if you want a bigger stomach.

Q: Is chocolate bad for me?
A: Are you crazy?
HELLO
Cocoa beans! Another vegetable!!! It's the best feel-good food around!

Q: Is swimming good for your figure?
A: If swimming is good for your figure, explain whales to me.

Q: Is getting in-shape important for my lifestyle?
A: Hey! 'Round' is a shape!

Well, I hope this has cleared up any misconceptions you may have had about food and diets.

And remember:
'Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways - Chardonnay in one hand - chocolate in the other - body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming 'WOO HOO, What a Ride'

AND......

For those of you who watch what you eat , here's the final word on nutrition and health. It's a relief to know the truth after all those conflicting nutritional studies.
1. The Japanese eat very little fat and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

2. The Mexicans eat a lot of fat and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

3. The Chinese drink very little red wine and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

4. The Italians drink a lot of red wine and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

5. The Germans drink a lot of beers and eat lots of sausages and fats and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

CONCLUSION
Eat and drink what you like. Speaking English is apparently what kills you.
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http://www.nasa.gov/externalflash/name_ISS/index.html

Nasa is holding a vote to name the next part of the ISS to go up. Serenity is in the lead at the moment :) GO VOTE
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coughing like all hell, plus a bad gag reflex equals me puking when the crud does come up >.< and crud it is.

yeah...not fun >.< WTB mind upload so I can scrap this failing body

IRC quote

Feb. 10th, 2009 01:07 am
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Silence is golden. /mode +b is silver

(for those that don't get it, +b is ban...doesn't remove the person from channel by itself, but they can't talk with it set, and if they leave, they cant return)
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hrm. apparently I'm doing something wrong...

my current main, if you could say that, is an 80 Sub rogue...people tell me respec combat...

so I tried it, took it to the dummies in org

and lost about 100 dps.

say wha?

sorry. Sub is a) more fun, and b) I seem to do more damage.
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Signed a lease on an apartment today, me and my brother will be living together. meh. will be nice to be out of here...
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I must not break CC.
CC breakers are the raid killers.
Broken CC is the raid-wipe that brings large repair bills.
I will leave the CC.
I will permit it to remain untouched.
And when it has broken I will guide it to a tank.
Where the CC has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain.

maybe I should make a macro for this? :P

for those who don't know, CC = Crowd Control.
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WOOT. GO OBAMA
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So...I scroll of recalled at 41. figured I'd see where it put me.

Crossroads. Bugged so no npcs, no mobs, no people. not even the mailbox

so I hearth. 5 feet under grom'gol (my hearth).

except I'm in the veiled sea south of silithus. way out past the fatigue area. and most npcs drop to the bottom of the sea. no FPing out.

so I swam to tanaris before getting dced. got some nice exploration done...parts of STV, darkshire, elwynn, redrige....

http://s461.photobucket.com/albums/qq339/corvincorvae/ for the screenshots Razz
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I have my computers back :D posting from laptop now
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so, finally went and beat Final Fantasy X. end bosses were easy when you hit 80-90k damage in one shot...
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Your result for The Which Music Genre Has the Best Looking Females? TEST (With Pictures)...

Goth


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So, you like them dark and stylish? Well, who wouldn't? Of course, I'm thinking about the original, late 70s & 80s goth. :)


Wikipedia:


"Gothic rock (alternatively called goth rock or simply goth) is a genrealternative rock that originated during the late 1970s. Originally, bands from the genre had strong ties to the English punk rock and emerging post-punk styles. The genre itself was defined as a separate movement from punk rock during the early 1980s. Gothic rock artists deal with dark themes and intellectual movements such as gothic horror, romanticism, and nihilism. Notable gothic rock bands include Bauhaus, The Cure, Siouxsie & the Banshees, The Sisters of Mercy, and The Mission. Gothic rock gave rise to a broader goth subculture that includes goth clubs, goth fashions, and goth-oriented magazines."

Take The Which Music Genre Has the Best Looking Females? TEST (With Pictures) at HelloQuizzy




heh

tied for goth, synthpop and metal as top. not suprising at all :)
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Your result for The Steampunk Style Test...

The Ragamuffin


You are the Ragamuffin, the embodiment of steampunk playfulness. Chances are, you approach the genre from a much more casual and lighthearted standpoint than most other fans. To you, there is always an element of play inherent in the genre, and you may very well enjoy fashion as much for the opportunity to dress up as for the style itself. You probably wear goggles as an accessory, and rarely as actual eye-protection. Your outfits are likely to incorporate a lot of brown or cream, and combine large boots, Victorian corsets or vests, aviator caps or bowler hats, and gypsy skirts or slacks, simply because you like them all.



Try our other Steampunk test here.

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ok, so in a way I posted about this before:

http://varjosusi.livejournal.com/200594.html

the watched feeling feels worse. I'm posting via phone because the room the computer is in has too many windows.

and im not the only one. brother has had same feelings. so has a cousin. she, her husband and newwborn stayed in room im currently in. she constantly felt watched at night, and swears she saw a dark shape move to near her baby, then disappear.

im alone in the house for almost a week. kinda desperate. kinda want to do a cleansing of some sort but, a) I don't have a clue as to how to, b) im completely broke, c) everything I see online mentions incense, which isn't allowed in house due to grandma's allergies.

the other thing I wonder about, is if its not location based, but following me. I've never been afraid of the dark, hell, can't sleep if its not dark, but at night outside I sometimes feel watched. not always, but I remember it in texas, and a few other places. and then other times (such as SCA events I feel just fine.

either way, its starting to seriously affect me.

as I said in my previous post: I may be agnostic* on the whole god thing, but not one bit on spirits/ghosts/whatever.




okay, so I have asatruar leanings. but just enough to state that if I did believe something, it would be that.
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And so, tomorrow it comes to pass that I will have lived on this ball of rock, water, and carbon based lifeforms for 25 years.

And for the first time, I'll not be single on my birthday. So that be a good change.

May be moving out to tecumseh, oklahoma soon. depends on finding a job here (yes, I'm there currently, staying with one of my best friends...and his sister, aka, my girlfriend)

so..

Apr. 8th, 2008 07:27 pm
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bye bye sprint. Missed too many days due to bronchitis. need new job.
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so....bronchitis SUCKS

been coughing non stop for a few weeks now. and its making me unable to work
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